I knew a guy who loved coke. He was 39 years old with 4 kids when we buried him. We cried for his children. The insurance company coughed up the $600,000. on a one year old policy. His wife and her new boyfriend went through the money quickly.
Yep, enjoy that breakfast while you can. They say the damage done to your heart can only be detected during an autopsy.
Sympathies about your friend (was he a friend?) Ger...
Gerard K H Love said:
If Bukowski was into coke he would not have written most of his best work.
Meh, well... see, I have kind of an off-the-wall belief here. I kind of agree with you, in the sense that, I believe that if we (could) go back in the past and change just one (even if it be very small) thing, it changes, or can change every single thing in the present.
(I study religions, don't take me all that seriously, I'm an atheist at heart.)
Though... on the contrary, we don't know if he ever was for sure, and if it ever came out that he was, then his alleged "best work" would still be there and it still would've been written. The past can't change and the present can't change the past. That sort of thang.
I'm sure I could divulge more into this theory, but my mind moves too fast for my fingers. It's awful, get awful headaches, insomnia, anxiety. Humbug.
Also: Re: Everyone
See: Prozac Nation; Elizabeth Wurtzel
Not saying much for her writing ability in my opinion, but the whole drug/past/present/work ethic/writing belief/whatever thing is conveyed sort of in the movie/book.
Dr. Sterling: Have you had any drugs in the last 24 hours?
Elizabeth: No. Well... I guess I snorted some coke and smoked some pot but uh, you know, that was just to make the ecstasy last longer.
Dr. Sterling: Sure you're not forgetting anything?
Elizabeth: Maybe a few beers?
Dr. Sterling: Did you ever think you might have a substance abuse problem?
Elizabeth: The only substance problem I have right now is that I need you to get me some trank so I can come down off this fucking coke.
And, RE: PILLS
I could see Buk having took pills. As a recovering alky/narc addict myself, booze and narcotics had a very similiar, numbing affect on me. I only ever took downers though, I hate(d) uppers. There should be another thread where we break down the psychology of it. That'd be fun.