Charles Bukowski - American author

it has been good in ways, i think more clearer, words come to me simpler.. just overall faster on my reaction, but i miss the alcohol.

i'm 26 years old, and have been drinking since 16.. didn't really drink hardcore until the last three years ago.. would get drunk for 10-12 days.

i'm sober now, but i'm actually more depressed than ever, i miss the alcohol, it's like i broke up with my girlfriend or something. i know i'm an alcoholic, but i don't really want to quit. the seven days sober was more to see if i could do it, and i did.

now i'm on the fence about opening this bottle or remaining sober a little longer. maybe i should work out a moderation plan.

any advice? i'm sure a few of you elders have been down this road.

thanks.