I've seen the term "collective trauma" thrown around a few places on the internet when talking about the pandemic, and while I don’t know if it's collective (I guess that’s why I'm asking), I'm certainly starting to feel it myself. At the beginning of the quarantine I was sort of excited to see how much I could accomplish with all that extra time, and for the most part I did the best of my abilities with it. But after a while, even if I was being the most productive being on the planet, I felt emptier and emptier. Right now I kind of resigned to the idea that no matter if I'm watching a TV show I didn’t have time to watch before or doing chores or working on something personal, I'm still going to feel that way. So now I just kinda lay on my bed doing nothing whenever there isn’t anything urgent to do. I literally get no pleasure from anything. It’s like when you’re depressed, except I don’t consider myself depressed, since I'm actually sort of more hopeful for the future than ever before, specially with the fact that people are starting to speak up and inform themselves about serious issues like what is going on in the US, something I've been trying to do myself as best as I can (when I’m not working or resting in bed like a potato). It’s more like indifference towards my present self. In conclusion, it’s getting weird.
PS: I know this post may come off as whiny amidst the current state of the world, but I just felt I wanted to share my experience and maybe hear some of the experiences of the people in here. I wish the best to all of you. Take care!