Black Swan, do you know a place in these forums, again my computer is down, for sharing poetry and stories. I 'm seeing this from a mobile device and I'm new to posting period. Thanks, for the welcome. I have a neurological condition called CRPS/RSD, in a nut shell it's life in a pain amplifier. Maybe it's what the stigmata really is. I burn and get actual blisters from a dysfunctional sympathetic nervous system. They "treat me" with periodic multiple days of anesthesia infusions and I take it daily at home to try maintain a level below what I call, the frostbite~flamethrower. I hardly ever sleep but I write daily and play the guitar, the more I do (multitasking), the more I can distract "IT". At night is truly when the monsters come out. Without conscious thought and activity, the only input is the "burning", so it ramps up brutally. I haven't slept in a bed, since the nerve release that opened the flood gates. So, as I deal with it, it's another example of all "my" roads lead to Bukowski, he taught me there can indeed be pain without reason. I'm trying to learn lessons from it and pain is a teacher. Worse then the meanest nuns I had in elementary school!
Thanks in advance if you can stear me around the forums. I often get a message that says, "I don't have access."
Thanks in advance if you can stear me around the forums. I often get a message that says, "I don't have access."