Greetings, sisters, brothers, and others! ?
I'm fine, thanks to those who were concerned.
Cost wasn't a factor in closing the site; technology was. The site—and the database—run on PHP and a couple of MySQL databases. The PHP scripting language changes every year. So, every year, I've had to learn what's changed and go through the site (and others) to make sure I update all the code.
I attempted to update everything to adapt to the changes at the end of 2023, and I probably could have done it eventually, but it was more difficult and frustrating than it's been in previous years, and after spending a day on it, I asked myself, "Why am I doing this? Why am I spending the days I have left on earth like this? Do I really want to do this again next year, and the year after that, and the year after that?" I couldn't come up with a good answer to why, and the answer to whether I want to keep doing it into the foreseeable future is 'no.' I always saw the database as the heart of the site, so I didn't want to leave the site up without its heart.
As for recreating the database, I don't believe it's re-creatable. There are 18 database tables, and the way they interact is complicated. It took 39 PHP files to create that database interface. It's unlikely anyone could make it work as it used to, and it would hurt me to see it in a broken or "less-than" state. If someone here believes they can make sense of all of that and update it to make it work, let me know. But I warn you, I'm not a professional coder, so the whole package probably needs a lot more than an easy update fix. It probably needs a rewrite from the ground up. And that will be a considerable task.
I say it would hurt me to see it in a "less-than" state because it's my work, and I don't think anyone can begin to imagine how much work it was. I started working on it in 1996 and didn't stop for 27 years. Many people contributed to it, of course, but I did every minute, hour, year, and decade of work on it myself. That should give me the right to retain its integrity as I see fit, even if that means deleting it. (I didn't delete it; I haven't lost my mind yet.)
And honestly, technology wasn't the only factor. If I still had the love for Bukowski's work that I had in the past, I'd deal with the technology. I'd spend the time needed. The site, database, timeline, forum, and everything else I did was a labor of love. But I don't have that love for Bukowski anymore, so it boils down to whether I want to spend my time working to maintain something I don't love anymore.
For me, and I assume for most people if we're being honest, that's a 'no.'
None of this has to make sense to you to be valid for me. ? I didn't do this to hurt anyone, though I knew it would hurt some of you. I love you all, and I'm glad to be one of the people who brought us all together.