"It's like any good relationship. You have to make yourself look vulnerable occasionally and then freeze them out to show them who's boss. Or maybe that's a terribly draining relationship, I forget."
Ninjerk - brilliant!!
the last time i was REALLY drunk was just before xmas. it was pretty bad... i went to see this band play, (i've been sleeping with the guitarist for a few months) but i was on my own as my friend who was supposed to meet me there never turned up. i'd already had a bottle of wine before i even left the house. anyway, this guy is really smart, witty and talented, and i really admire and respect him. but i'm not terribly good in social situations... and i got uber-paranoid that he would think i was being too full-on, just turning up at his gig all on my own, like some kinda groupie... so i drank loads of red wine to compensate for my total lack of self-confidence and ended up shit-faced.
all this was worsened by the fact that he was quite sober. and then he told me he wasn't coming home with me at the end of the night. feeling completely humiliated and rejected, i decided to make things even worse for myself and ended up taking home some friend-of-friend who was a complete asshole and left me barely able to walk the next day... and i forgot to mention that i also made-out with a female friend of the guy i'm seeing. totally not my normal behaviour when i'm drinking.
i felt pretty traumatised the next day, and knew i'd gone too far. so i've been staying at home to do my drinking, where i'm less likely to embarass myself.
jesus, i just re-read my post... hope it's not too full-on, but we're all friends here, right?? ;)